1. |
Umaretate no Yuki
02:59
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I can’t hide a feeling
When it’s my drive to go on
I can’t promise to forget you
When all my dreams follow your voice
I can’t say I regret the time
Even if I’d die tomorrow
I can’t say I forgive you
For being so kind to me
I can’t say I’ll stop fighting my demons
Imagining you’re by my side
I know it’s been so many years
But my greatest fear is that I’ll forget
生まれたての雪
が降っている
七年前から
風のたどり着く場所から
How many moments…
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2. |
Sanguine Snow
02:34
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Keep moving on
Keep moving forward through all of the hard times
I’ll always run
Towards the hope that maybe you’ll come back one day
Sometimes I’m so tired
A heart half empty
The snowstorm sustains
But I’ll keep running
Towards your voice
Towards our memories
Even if yours came back to you
I’d never be more than blood
I’ll always smile
Even in moments where I remember
How our love
Is not destined for us in this tragedy
Only me
Wait for me
I see your footprints
As long as the snow still holds their shape
I’ll always run back to you
This curse buries me
Please recall my name
Seven years is a long time
To be gone
Underneath the snow and the ice
I’ve been waiting patiently
Shoes not moving on a frozen ground
I’ve been running in place
Towards your voice
Through the barren snowscape
Even if all the ice melts away
I’ll never be more than blood and tears
I’ll never be what you need
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3. |
Angel Wings
04:22
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Put on a smile
Put on a pair of wings
As I stumble, running through the marketplace
Snow underfoot, but a warm hand catches me
Scolding me, but it’s a voice 懐かしい
I’m flying on angel wings
They’re those you gave to me
A promise I can’t keep
I feel I’ve seen this before
Is this all just a dream?
Don’t wake me
Put on a song I heard so long ago
As we enter the snowstorm, what are we chasing now?
I think it was something that you gave to me
Something precious, something I needed to keep
Fly through this eternal dream
Creating memories
I never lived to see
Die in this eternal dream
Relinquish memories
Will I ever wake up?
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4. |
Flickering Stars
02:44
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Waiting a lifetime for tomorrow
Snow coming down in the light of the moon
I want to believe you’ll be standing there
Please don’t melt away with the coming seasons
ついに希望の光を見つけた
ついに優しい気持ちを見つけた
でも吹雪の中で声が届けない
重ねて見失った
待って。。。待って
I see
Two stars in the sky
I feel
Their generous light
I watch as they flicker
Fear grips my heart
Please be there
Tomorrow night
Waiting a moment in uncertainty
Feels like a lifetime in darkness
I hope I’ll find your tracks left in snow, I’ll follow them home
As long as there’s one star left, I’ll try to navigate
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5. |
Absent God
06:28
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So many words are thin
But I see yours carved in stone
To say I’ve seen the light
I’ve been all but mesmerized
Just a glimpse in the distance
But it’s the most I’ve ever seen… And the most I care to know
I pledge my hollow soul
You offer forgiveness
I change my very self
You offer love
Always looking over my shoulder
At those I’ve left behind
Give me a reason
To look forward… To move forward
Oh my God
I can’t trust anyone so I will trust in you
Oh my God
I can’t see any light, so I will follow you
Oh my God
Nothing but hedonist vermin surrounding me
Oh my God
Banish my suffering; grant me your company
Oh my God
I find your chapel upon the highest cliff
Oh my God
Overlooking the ocean as the sun gently rises
Oh my God
I climb my way to the holy steeple above
Oh my God
I bare my sins and prepare for your judgement
I abandon all those tied to their earthly sins
Who wallow in moments of shallow passion
Who swallow the poison and then swallow seed
Then breathe in the smoke as if their hearts they do not bleed
I turn deaf to my call to silence their voices
To set free the blood bound by parasitic flesh
Though I long to see the light fade from their eyes
Much stronger my heart longs to be right by your side
I stand before you, so lawfully bound
I’ve lived by commandments carved clear in my eyes
Read every word of the texts you provide
Lived by each sermon and walked every line
I’ve cut out my heart, torn the flesh from the bone
Abandon my shadow as I leap from chapel stone
I look to the sunrise as I fall through the sky
But as I catch a glimpse – God’s not looking at me
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6. |
To Remove Me
03:55
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Fall; I’ve always been just like the snow
To my knees; whenever you were there
Will you watch me
As my final days melt away
Gone; I didn’t know how long I had
With the wind; so long yet so fleeting
Will you mold me
Back into a person again
Or for the first time
When the snow becomes rain
When the trees bare leaves
When the darkness falls
Will I still be here
I’d be lying if I said that I
Wasn’t scared of permanent goodbyes
Will you recall me
When my voice slips from memories
I’d be lying if I said that I don’t hope for you to find
A miracle for me
Will you keep me
Even when the sun’s burning bright
Erasing me
When I melt away
When I join the wind
When I disappear
Will you care at all
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7. |
Sapporo
04:32
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In this city of snow
And ice
And light
Despite the cold
I feel warm
And I feel I’ve been here before
Stepping out, I remember scenes
I remember feelings, tugging on my heart
Bringing me here
Maybe it was in a dream
(Or maybe in another life)
And here in this city of snow and ice and light
Maybe I could raise another life
Maybe in the artificial light
Reflected off the snowflakes at night
I could have hope
I could let go of my god
And start to believe in something more
In something beside me
Not hiding
In the shadows
Of an artificial life
And I’m building the streets to a kingdom of snow
And they’re not easy to walk, but you can never get lost
And I’m building the scenes of a life never lived
And I’m not dreaming this time, don’t say I’m dreaming this time
And I’m carving the snow in the shape of a grave
So you can bury me here, please remember me here
And there’s a park nearby with sturdy evergreens
And the foxes play there, look at their innocent eyes
And all the monsters I’ve angered have come to follow me here
But I’m prepared for them now, I’ve kept a place for them here
And I’m building the walls of my cold kingdom come
And I’m not shivering I’m not shivering
And I’m building the fears of my cold kingdom come
And I’m not shivering I’m not shivering
For the palm a tiny hand is melting a hole
For artificial light illuminated light
And the palm of a tiny hand is melting a hole
So I can always see out
And a smile so bright, there’s no way you could call it
Artificial light
And we’re building the scenes of a life never lived
Out of snow and ice and light
And we’re building a frozen kingdom
Up to the sky
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8. |
Ice Empire
05:12
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Icicle crown
I’m in control
Frozen in time
I own it all
A blanket of snow
It covers the wounds
It conceals the shadows dancing
As far as it reaches, I will call it my empire
Soldiers cannot leave or abandon when they’re frozen in place
Frozen with a smile on their face, they will fight for peace
Snow falls day and night
The wind blows it away
A flurry of security and happiness, I have it all
Rightful heir this will all be yours
A flurry of security and happiness, I will make it mine
A body shatters so easily in ice
But I won’t forget the crash and pain when the crown falls
Shattering on frozen floors now melting in the sun
A warm August a cruel reminder everything is temporary
A feeling of permanence is a dangerous lie to believe
And I won’t forget everything could shatter in a moment
Or it could melt away losing shape day by day
And I won’t forget for every loving hand to help you up
A million more eager to tear you down and take what’s left as salvage
For you, I could try to trust so you won’t be scared but
To ignore the damage dealt and the lessons learned in a selfish world is foolish
Be better than me, be better than the husks of humans who wander here
For when the crown is your treasure to wear, you’ll look out to the dark and find that they need a savior
For I have nothing but hate
Because I’m done giving them chances
Because I have no hope
Because any one of them could be you
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9. |
The Fox's Grudge
02:46
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Love me
Repair me
Confide in me
I’ll listen
Trick me
Don’t leave me
Abandon me
I’ll find you!
Why’d you take me in
Just to let me die in summer’s arms alone
Chase you chase you
Can’t escape the burning hatred
Crush you crush you
Can’t outrun a living grudge
Need you need you
Can’t deny that there is something in the winter wind keeping me beside you
Can’t remember
I only know I can’t forgive you
How you hurt me
But the feeling advises me
Love me love me
You’re the only face I know in a fading world leaving me behind
Fight
Don’t fight
Love
Don’t…
Can’t
Remember
Can’t
Forgive
Hey
I know it’s been
Some time
I think
I’m losing my mind
But I remember you
Keep me, keep me
In your memory
Keep me, at least
For this moment
I can barely say my name
What was it again?
I can almost hear…
Are those ringing bells?
I know you are
Important to me
Why? I can’t…
Just hold on to me
One last moment
In the sunset
Ringing bells
Call me back to the place where the wind blows
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10. |
Marizon
05:14
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Sunrises
Hold your eyes
They gaze
At me
While I wait
For your wings to
Unfold
And fly
August still
Has your name
And when it calls
I fall
Once again
To my knees
I just want to see you rise above your despair
Fly there
Sleep on the bed of clouds, they were made for you
Marizon
Once you have bled out the pain, you’ll ascend into heaven
Or if you want to,
You could settle for my arms, and just cry it away
I’m still stuck
On what ifs
More for you than me
(The only time that I’ve been selfless)
Would you have been okay?
And if so, would I give up everything I’ve earned since then
And choose that lifetime?
August still has your name
And I’m getting better, I only hear your name maybe once a day
But I still always see you
In the sunrise
I just wanted everything I perceived to be real
Please forgive me
I could never know what you were fighting inside
Marizon
I’ve created a fantasy in the sky
And I can find you there
Where the waves are crashing, the sun is rising, it’s August, and you smile.
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11. |
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I was all alone
Ostracized by the power of life I held
Their fear of death condemned me
I was just a child
I had to go north, I had nothing
Until you reached out to me
I was never asking for any more than you
A friend to call my name
When we played in the fields I never thought the days would end
It was the last time I smiled
Then the monsters came
Concrete demons slaying the memories of youth
I desperately called your name
But you left me there alone
檻の中に
I’m fighting a war with illusions
Cursed to carry the blade
Repressing the tears of life
My battlefield; a grave of the past
My memories all desecrated
In this city of miracles
I stand in the darkest cage
Then you returned
After so long
Do you have any idea
The pain I’ve endured
Every single night
Every single night
For seven years
I’ve taken up the sword
Fighting demons who wished to take the only sacred place I had
They won every battle
Now the only thing that stands here is my concrete prison
Release me release me
The fields of youth and innocence have been paved over
思い出して、思い出して
Now I’ve come to accept
This war will never be over
No matter how hard I fight
The demons will always return
Do you see me now
I have no place in this world (I have no place in your heart)
Point the sword to the source of it all
It’s time for me to go (It’s time for me to go)
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12. |
Husk
08:05
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I am nothing
But the remains
Of the shadow
Of a creature
So far from human
Still I wait
For an excuse
To try and pass off this stillborn heart
As one of theirs
Despite repeated failures
And pain
Something
Longs for more
More than nothing
There’s a heart behind the mask
Struggling to break the façade
There’s an eye watching the heart
That proves the façade to be real
Die inside to endure life
Let your pain protect your smile
Let the black protect the world
Don’t connect to a beating heart
You know you’ll want it in your hands
You know you’ll want them dead
Awake
Don’t feel
Don’t worry
Cover
Don’t care
Don’t love
Sleep
Don’t dream
Don’t hope
Awake
Don’t lust
Don’t kill
Detach
Don’t trust
Don’t Breath
Breath
Don’t speak
Don’t cry
Don’t reach out
Scream
Silence
Failure
Pain
Restart
Shed my insides
I walk, a husk
Carry nothing no lifeform
Effortless bliss
To feel nothing no pain
No happiness
I can’t shed a tear without a loss
So I hold nothing
Even in safety
Sometimes, I wonder
Did I fail myself
Have I failed you
You, yet to live
Yet I am dead
Stars fall like snow
Right between my fingers
Let me save one
Let me feel something
Let me give something
Please let me feel
I’ll take the pain
Let me show I care
And truly mean it
Even if I fear it
I want to feel it
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13. |
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How many minutes until the sunrise
I want this moment with you to last
How many more sleepless nights
Spent thinking of you
How many more wishes will I make on those distant stars
Before I give up on that fading light that’s long dead
How many more days do I look to the sun and hope
That you’ll notice how I love you so
And how many minutes till the sunrise
I still can’t see any light behind the ocean
I block out everything except you
When the sound of you voice is the only noise I can hear
Tell me of your hopes
Of your dreams
Of your fears
Of how you will never last in the real world
And how many minutes until the sunrise
The darkness starting to flee from the sky
This moment so sacred so precious to me
It will never be replayed again
I can smile now
But tomorrow might be different
You’re here with me now
But tomorrow will be different
And the weeks and months to come
What will I do?
As you’re not there with me
And I can’t be there for you
I swear, if you loved yourself
As much as I love you
You could be happy
And I’d be happy just to love you
But it will never come to pass
And how many minutes until the sunrise
I want this to last
_______
You sitting there
What do you think
Of the chill
In the air
Do you notice
Or, is it just me
How long
Do you think we have
How long can I pretend that this is going somewhere
And are you pretending
How much is real
Do you have feelings
Do you have feelings
And how many minutes until the sunrise
I’m worried when this moment ends
Do we have anything
An excuse to see you
Cause I don’t have a reason
____
How long
Oh, how long…
I love you
I love you
And how long until the sunrise
I see some light over the horizon
How many minutes in this moment
Sitting here with you
And are they as precious to you as to me
I know the answer and it hurts
It hurts
How many minutes until the sunrise
I still haven’t told you… what’s on my mind
I won’t give up on you just yet
The strongest feeling I’ve ever felt deserves more of a fight
And so do you
How many moments left until the end
Each one as precious as this right now
How many minutes are left before the sun rises
I see the light in the distance
Does that mean it’s over?
Does that mean it’s over?
Are you already gone?
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