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Careless
03:54
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You said you cared
Too carelessly
You said you loved
While on a sinking ship in a stormy sea
I waited there
Out by the shore
Waited for years
Never sure if you’d come home
Then one day out of the dark
I saw your ship run ashore
Came out to see me with a new
Hope, a gamble of love
You said “Give me your heart
And I’ll give you my word”
Fingers still shaking but I trusted
That you’d keep it safe
So I reached in my chest
Past all the fear and the hate
Past all the darkness suppressed
You could never know what that
Took for me, but you took me in your arms
And I felt safe and happy
And then I saw you pull a knife
With no remorse
You plunge it in
An empty spot for that metal blade to sit
Fall on my knees
As you walk away
My heart in hand, discard it out of reach
Time slows down
We’re far away
Walking the forest trail or
Waiting for the train
Just sitting in class
Drawing a picture
I thought it would last
I would find God
Just to get back to a form of you
Still living sinless in hopes of a better life above
And I’d convince you to hate him again, but not
Before I’d make you feel whole, without the need for fear and skin
I think of this, as I pull my gun
Train the sights on the back of your head, fingers shaking
But before I pull the trigger
I let the sights fall to your shoulder instead
And I hold my breath
And I don’t know if I’ll see you again, but if I do
We’ll carry these wounds
And it will never be the same
I will never be…
I’m going through those memories
How many of those shades were real
The words you said so carelessly
They carried such a weight to me
I’m losing control of all the things I thought were safe and stable
Nothing I know except that there is no love here
I cared more
I cared more
I cared more
I cared more
I cared more
I cared more
Do you care at all
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Empty
07:06
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There’s never enough that I could say
To convey the happiness
You placed in me
It still outweighs the pain, but it’s slipping
Slipping with my memories
Now painted grey
I want to cherish the good ones
Please let them stay…
And I want… I want to tell you
That you can come home
That you have a home here
But I’m too afraid
Of when you’ll be going, and where
When you don’t need me
Traversing the oceans together
The smaller distance, put us somewhere
That I can’t place
To the snow, I found my future home
But I found it beside you, now you’re painted in the picture
Of a future melting away
I want to go back to that moment
And just hold you
And I would… I would tell you
That I adore you
That I can love you
But I know
Those words only exist to you
In that moment
You only need me when I’m there
I want to hold your hand… and softly
Fall asleep knowing you’re there
But you showed me a world within a dream
Where I can be alive
Where I don’t need to pretend
I don’t want to wake up
I don’t want to go back
To fearing, or feeling
I’ll reside in between
So empty
So empty
All because I know…
How it feels
To hold you
To withdraw my empty arms
How it feels
To smile
Laughing at you, with you
Letting my soul right out my mouth
And I fear
That maybe I can’t say that this was something real
After all
Feeling it all
Passing by
Finite memories
Dying one by one
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Careless (Off Vocal)
03:54
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4. |
Empty (Off Vocal)
07:06
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Combining New Age instrumentation and sensibilities with Metal, Punk, and Rock structure to create Post-Age music.
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